god's to do list

the past few weeks i've been a little distant from God

distracted by the craziness of life and not seeking him everyday

only calling upon him when i think i need him 

i've been attempting to accomplish my to do list by myself, and solely myself

my mindset has been the following:

i'm working hard to be a good steward with what God has given me

if i put off devotions it's only because i'm trying to bring Him glory by doing my best at school and work

hmm...what sounds wrong with this?

i

oh but i did not realize this on my own

last night i was making my to do list on all the things that needed to be done before i left to see the boy

makeup sessions for work, papers and assignments due during my trip

i was beginning to feel overwhelmed

lindsay, why don't you let me help?

i stopped writing. 

my initial response was, well because i can do it myself

but then i reflected that every time i try to do things myself, things are harder

when i involve God, my things are lighter

i set aside my list and began to pray

i prayed that God would fix my mindset

i prayed that God would tell me the next step

put me first before your things, and i'll make sure your things are accomplished

{yup He definitely said 'things' because in my prayer i kept referring to them as all my 'things'}

it's so easy to get caught up with life
i feel like i put so many of my tasks as my priority
it's amazing how easily i forget to put the one who saved me first in my life

so blessed to have a God who loves me despite my craziness and my neglectfulness
He loves me enough to remind me, forgive me and never leave me
{how stinkin' amazing is his grace?}
God is most definitely number one on my to do list again.